I'm so young yet I feel like life is slipping by...

Again i come back to xanga to vent some of my relationship frustrations. So fair warning as you might be entering this blog thinking i'll be witty and ever so funny. Instead I will be a downer. I just don't understand why i'm always used? It's easy for me to take the blame because i want everyone to be happy, yet i can't help the feeling that I deserve more but will never find it. Dustin is this guy's name, funny, out going and high energy, everything i'm attracked to, but he is still hooked on his ex. I get so mad, she's a flake, doesn't want to commit to anything, yet he keeps hoping and holding out that she'll turn back to him. Yet here i am willing to give him the time he deserves and i get the frienship role, I want to have faith that God will turn my friendship into more but until that point or point that will never come, i am the friend that is treated like a girlfriend but without any commitment. I can look back on all my guy relationships and see this with everyone of them. So sick of it!!!